Rubbish Week :(

Well how is everyone ive been a bit moody this week dont know why just one of those things i think, weigh in last monday was a disaster i think all my bad deeds caught up with me and kicked me well and truly up the arse put on 3 pounds.

Although on a positive note its made me behave more this week although im well and truly dreading tonights weight in - ill be really annoyed if i havent lost ive pretty much done a fast start this week in order to make up for my sins so i guess the day of reckoning will be tonight.

Wish me luck cos ill need it xxx

BAD GIRL :(

Ok im soooo sorry ive not posted for over 2 weeks im so bad !!! Ive been mad busy and just kept forgetting you can punish me later.

Ok what have u missed well wedding wise things are still going ahead full steam photgrapher booked invite designs being made favours being purchased so all going well there.

Family wise things arent great my mum who has a history of depression and generally not being very sensible when it comes to alcohol has been up to her old tricks again and her other half has left her! Hes had enough i cant blame him she is hard work he normally comes back but we will see, so she is off the rails at the moment. Unfortunately i live 300 and odd miles away now so my auntie and uncle ( who are like my gran and grandad) are having to deal with it all and their to old for all the crap really so I feel a bit guilty that im not there to help.

Weight wise all good i cant complain really had a stay the same on the 30/08 which you know is fine i hadnt eaten properly that week so i wasnt surprised and then i had what i thought was a bad week ate loads of food including bad food and went on monday and id lost 3.5lbs - i have no idea how lol but im not complaning!

So i have no officially lost 33 pounds and 10% of my original body weight so im really pleased with my little self - only 2 pounds till my next silver seven yey :)

Im neglecting my blog :(

Im sooo bad ive been neglecting my loyal followers again - sorry folks ok what have i been up to.

Well i lost 0.5lb at weigh in on monday which im ok with as i thought i might have put on as i had yet another night out food & drink oh and another fry up lol - so im trying to be extra good this week so that i get the 1.5lb off i need for my 2 stone, so fingers crossed.

In wedding land my first favours arrived there are so cute ikkle elephants awwww (no im not crazy im getting married in a zoo), next month i might order the leopards i think. Design came through for my save the date cards although i dont like em they look a bit cheap so im gonna see if i can come up with anything this weekend that looks better lol :) so watch this space i might post the pics up for a vote lol if i remember. We also booked the honeymoon so cant wait its gonna be fabulous check out the link below if you wanna nosey where ill be going. But heres a sneaky peak for you sooo cant wait.

http://www.thomson.co.uk/destinations/africa/morocco/morocco-agadir/agadir/hotels/hotel-royal-atlas.html

speak to you soon folks have a great week everyone xxxx

sambouca and cake is the way forward in life !

Hullo my loyal readers sorry ive been neglecting you im a bad person i know so what have i got to tell then.

Well didn't weight in last monday as we were late getting back from Nottingham had a great weekend drinking and eating lots - i should have done a blog about the amazing cake i had last week i mean amazing does'nt cover it ! It was sex on a plate god knows how many points it was and i didn't care lol it was ssoooooooooooooooooooooooooo good anyhoo came back from nottingham and as we had been bad anyway we decided to compound the bad and have pizza and garlic bread with cheese :( it felt good being bad but the feeling of impending doom was not that good deary me.

Anyhoo to limit any damage caused by the above sex on a plate i tried to be good last week but i had a night out on saturday so started saturday with a fry up ( oh yes from a cafe and everything ) then had a salad and then went out and drank my body weight in alcohol lol i mean cocktail, wine & sambouca - and yes yet again i didnt point and loved every minute of it :) BAD GIRL !!!! So sunday you would think id get up and be good wouldnt you i mean that would be the sane thing to do but hell no i went out for another fry up!!!!

Dear god you can imagine how much i was dreading weigh in cant you so i toddle off tonight thinking i can handle a small gain and jesus i lost 2.5 pounds nearly fell over you know im gonna get bit on the arse next week dont you lol - anyhoo celebrated with a crunchie !!

So hopefully i will be good this week and get some more blubber gone only 2 pounds till 2 stone !!! Go me !!!

Weigh In Update

Hi Guys hope everyone is well - well had weigh in last night and wasnt nervous for some reason (maybe i should be i tend to do better lol) anyhoo lost 0.5lb not fabulous but hey it all counts - would have preferred some more but no point moaning no-one will listen ha ha so now i have lost 23.5 pounds in 11 weeks which is better than a kick in the teeth - with another 11 weeks till i start wedding dress shopping so my target for the next 11 weeks is 11 pounds - should be acheivable (hopefully lol)

Have a majorly busy and dangerous food wise week this week so do not think ill be losing next week - arrrgggghhhh gonna try and behave but its gonna be so hard lol. Wednesday im off to see the A-team cant wait so will be KFC for tea gonna be good thou and plan ahead and make sure i have enuff points sorted i should be fine.

Thursday, Friday & Monday im off work very dangerous!! and were off to nottingham for the weekend which means eating out and alcohol - omg im gonna be good take lots of low fat snacks and try and make sensible decisions but its worrying to say the least if i get one of my wild heads on it could all go wrong he he but i can but try.

So hope everyone has a good week and ill speak to you next week - take care folks x

Happy Bunny :)

Its Me again and im happy woo hoo after all my doom and gloom of yesterday ( think i may have been being slightly dramatic! ) i lost 2.5 pounds which means ive now lost 23 pounds yey - 2 pounds off 25lbs and 5 pounds off 2 stone BRILLIANT!!!! Feeling much better and happier silly moo that i am.

Also got a payrise at work yesterday so it turned out a good day in the end despite me being miserable.

Well this week im gonna try extra hard cos i would like to get the 2 pounds off if possible but we will see what happens i suppose xx

Bad Mood :(

Will somebody explain to me why i feel bad please lol its doin my head in !! I havent got much to feel bad about and to top it off i feel really fat today and i just know im gonna have put on tonight at ww :( i can feel it - i will be really annoyed if ive put weight on after i was so good on friday when i was out id rather have enjoyed being bad and understand why ive put weight on if you know what i mean. Anyhoo i suppose we will find out the dreaded result tonight, Ill let you all know tomorrow how i get on.

On the plus side im watching some cross trainers on Ebay as i need to start doing some excercise to shift some weight - so watch this space hopefully in the next couple of weeks ill have one - and then i can come on here and complain about how hard it is lol oooh you are lucky people getting to listen to me moan all the time!

Weddingy Stuff

Hi all how is everyone today im in a very good moond today all happy and smiley :). Have paid the deposit for out civil ceremony today so thats all booked woo hoo 'im getting married in the morning' - well not quite lol its a while away yet he he

And even better i get myself all peed off the other week when i found the perfect champagne flutes to go with my gold wedding theme and they also go with my venue theme any hoo to cut a long story short they had sold out and i was gutted :( but today went over to debenhams and they had some - yey bargain price as well! I luuurrrvvvvve them and they will look fab on my wedding day what do you think guys? Am i mad he he

I need a good talking to !

and maybe even a slap round the chops !!!

Went to weigh in last night and lost a pound which takes me to 20.5 pounds total loss now in 10 weeks since i joined ww - which im my sensible brain i know is good - so why the hell am i disapointed what is wrong with me - somebody deck me please.

A pound a week is good i know this i have told people this so why do i expect myself to do better and why am i so damn competetive its really sad that im this mental lol.

I know this is working my clothes are all to big im buying smaller clothes yet i still feel bad cos i only lost a pound :( its pathetic that i always give myself such a hard time why cant i be bloody pleased with myself for once. Anyhoo now i have finished moaning about my rubbish personality defects. How are my loyal readers doing? hope your having a good week.

On a positive note we have had all the letters confirming our wedding date 2pm 03/10/2011 woo hoo all we have to do is pay the deposit will get that done this week, and ive also seen the most gorgeous wedding dress in the world on the tinterweb its soooo amazing but to bloody expensive im hoping it looks like shite when i try it on lol as i will be trying it on in October - now all i have to do is work out a way of justifying spending over £1000.00 on a dress i mean jesus thats a lot of money - but it is lovely damn why oh why do i always go for the more expensive things.

Im looking forward to my night out on friday and im gonna try and get pics for you so you can let me know if im looking skinnier he he speak soon x

Saturday Night :)

Hey all well this weeks been ok really i got a small pay rise at work which is always good and i had a nice day today in the end,Wasnt feeling very motivated this morning was a bit tired and grumpy and it was so warm but i dragged myself off my fat arse for a walk and felt a million times better for it gonna try and do the same tomorrow but in the opposite direction up to the local farm shop so hopefully it should all show in inches.

Still dreading weigh in day its looming monday is nearly here again boo hoo - y do i always get so worried about it oh well fingers crossed i get that 1.5 pounds i need for my 3rd silver seven xxx

Welcome my followers :) yey

Just a quick one guys as im supposed to be working - but hellllloooooo somebody is reading the rubbish i type yey i promise to try and be much more interesting and funny just for you :)Please feel free to leave comments for me.

Anyhoo if you read my last post about my new top from yours i have now sent that back it looked rubbish on and a bit cheap so i though well ill try new look a shop i have avoided for many reasons mainly cos they never have any bloody 26's in stock lol and i dont fit in anything but hey ho times are hard and i want a new top my my night out next week - and i got one a size fits lovely looks great and cos of the style will look ok over the next few months when hopefully im losing weight - bloody brilliant and it was only a tenner - so pleased.

I will try and take a pic next friday when im out so you can see it - size 22 here i come woo hooo xxxx

woo hoo new clothes :)

well im very excited as i ordered my self a couple of new tops from yours and they have just arrived - tried em on at work as you do. One was a size 24 reduced to a pound in the sale - didnt think it would fit and it does brillian, and another that i bought for going out in a longer top to wear with leggings now its one of these stupid sizes ie its 2 sizes in one so i ordered a 22-24 thinking if its tight well i can slim into it! Well it feels big on ( it was from yours so they are big sizes but hey ho its a victory) - unbelievable anyhoo im gonna try it on again tonight when im at home and see what i think when i can look in a mirror properly but it may have to go back - how brill is that lol! Ive only lost 19.5 pounds so far and didnt really expect to see that much of a difference but i was a size 26-28 in tops ( if they were fitted defo 28 lol ) and my size 30 pants were fitting snuggley ( they used to be big) so im well pleased that its making that much of a difference.

The only problem is now if i send this top back what am i gonna wear when i go out on the 16th lol oh well ill raid me wardrobe and see what i find he he such a giddy aunt at the moment.

Hopefully it will carry on like this and ill soon be the size 22 i wanna be by october for when i go wedding dress shopping - happy happy girl today.

Im useless lol ........

Im so rubbish at keeping this up lol although technically im still not sure if anybody apart from me is reading it pmsl so maybe i can forgive myself.

Had weigh in last night and after being extremely good for a week and i mean very very very good i lost 1.5 pounds was a little gutted so i have decided to test the whole im not eating enuff theory so this week im going to make sure that i eat at least 25 points a day and save 4 points for saturday for my wine and a treat.

Its really weird thou as i have forced myself to snack today but hey im off to iceland tonight to stock up on WW deserts in case i need to emergency use up points so lets see what happens next week.

On the bright side thou i shouldnt feel bad i have lost 19.5 pounds which is nearly 10 bags of sugar and thats a lot of fat to lose.

Anyhoo my other half is doing really well mainly by winging it i think lol he hasnt tracked for 2 weeks and still lost 5 pounds so he is now beating me again - i think thats what grates me more im not winning - bugger!

well i will try and find something exciting to write about this week i promise x

Weigh in & General Phone joy :)

Well weigh in was poo!!!!! I put on half a pound :( isnt it weird that i knew i hadnt lost weight ooooh maybe im psychic anyway that put me in a bad mood last night so i went to bed and watched the boat that rocked to cheer me up.

I thought today was gonna be rubbish as well it didn't start off great i over slept grrrrrrr i hate it when i do that ! Im not good at being late it winds me up - im a grumpy moo sometimes but today turned out better than i thought !

It was upgrade day for my phone always a good day really but i thought i wouldnt be able to get the phone i wanted but i could thanks you woman at orange your great :) So tomorrow my shiny new blackberry 9700 arrives - I Love New Toys !!! Probably wont be able to work it but it should keep me amused for a while and the best thing is i now get to buy a case for it the question is how sparkly do i go !!! Diamonte's here i come woo hoo x

Me & my man

Heres me and my man this pic isnt as bad i dont hate it lol but could do without the rolls of fat lol x

Pics of me x

Thought i would add some pics of me at my heaviest - so you know what i look like and i will add more as we go along hopefully with me looking slimmer lol - this is me and my girlies the best friends in the world - I hate the way I look in this Picture i hate the outfit and everything - Yuk x

Catch up time

OOOh where have i been i really dont know to be honest lol - nothing exciting has been happening had time of the month last week so was feeling a bit sorry for myself and have had my darling other half all weekend which was nice yey :)

Saturday we went for a walk along the beach and then round the shops although couldnt buy anything as dont get paid till wednesday so i have 80 pence till then woo hoo - im rich - not!!! I should be rich its not fair i would be good at being rich!!

Yesterday i watched the pain that was the england game - my god why do i do it to myself why havent i got the sense to just ignore it lol anyhoo i suppose we have the olympics to look forward to we may win sommat there! My gorgeous man made a scrummy tea last night homemade burges and chips ( oven chips ) i ate loads didnt go over points but still didnt need to eat as much as i did lol but god they tasted well nice.

So today im feeling a bit fat probably cos i scoffed my face last night and its weigh in tonight so im dreading it - i will be happy with any loss please weigh in god!!!

Ill let you know later how i get on ttfn xxx

Fat Club Day :)

Woo hoo yes I am feeling very happy with myself in fact i would like a big CHUFFTY badge please - I lost 5 pounds still cant believe it am amazed and giddy all in one lol.

Which means i have now lost over a stone & i also got my 5% yey woo hoo go me :) In fact if i lose 2.5 more pounds i will have lost 1 and half stones my god !!!!!

Cant remember what else happened today not a lot anyway lol i just lost weight !! oh and for the record my wonderful other half lost 4 pounds as well and got to his first stone. So were a happy housey tonight xxx

My Weekend

Well friday was a bit of a rubbish day have had a cough and a cold and was feeling sorry for myself was supposed to be going out that night but had to cancel so i didn't pass on the lergie. So idecided to treat myself in the morning so i had my breakfast at Maccy D's yum yum - double sausage & egg meal - it was fit! But i was good the rest of the day and still manage to come in under points woo hoo im a good girl really he he :)

Saturday my gorgeous man was off work and the sun was shining so after a nice lie in we decided to got to deal and have a walk along the seafront and maybe have a mooch round the shops and yes you have guessed it as soon as we got there it pissed it down ! looked like a drowned rat so didn't do as much walking as i wanted and had a fry up lol at the cafe - ended up going over by about 5.5 points yesterday but i had them saved up so i dont mind - Saturday is my treat day and always the day im bad, finished the day with a film & WW wine - I love saturdays with my Man.

Today i'm in for a day of excitement well basically washing! otherwise ill be going to work naked and I don't think the world is quite ready for that yet :)

Update on Diet & Wedding prep

Well i have already been dieting for 5 weeks i go to weightwatchers as i need the regular weight in to kick me up the butt im useless without it so fat ive lost 13.5 pounds so all going well. My weigh in night is a monday so im sure ill keep you all updated with whats happening on that front.

Wedding Update: Im a lucky girl my mum is very nicely paying for my wedding which is amazingly generous and i am gonna try and contorl the spending - so far i have picked the venue cant tell you where its a secret just in case anyone i know will find this blog work outs its me and tell everyone i know - thats would be a disaster - lets just say its amazing and i love it. I have also booked the hotel for the wedding party for the night b4 and the night of the wedding apart from that youve not missed much. Oh yeah and ive organised the hen doo lol - i have my priorities in order!!

So your right up to date now with where im at everything else ill report along the way and also probably a load of rubbish you dont need to know but hey im a sharer :)

My First Ever Post :)

Well is suppose i should fill you in on myself, im a pretty normal 32 year old love all the normal things in life, some things a little to much he he :) Ill start my blog by filling you in where im at right now in my life and that will lead to why im boring you all to death with this!

Any hoo my life was pretty normal loved having fun with my friends and partying in Manchester and then i decided i was getting on a bit and id better make the effort to find a fella to look after me in me old age. So to cut a long story short internet dating started ( oh way to many funny stories for you there believe me) and it worked found the man of my dreams and moved to Dover in Kent. All is well in Kent well were skint all the time lol but happy and were getting married next year :) 3rd October 2011 i will become a married woman how scary.

So here i am probably the most important 15 months of my life coming up and i decided to share it with the world :) well maybe if anyone is reading this.

Just to back track above i mentioned my love of things in life unfortunately many of those things have been bad for me :( - to name a few - Beer, Chocolate, Takeaways & Shoppings. Hence im 32 a size 28 and in a hell of a lot of debt not far off 20 grand to be exact. Dont get me wrong i had a hell of a lot of fun getting there but now i have to lose weight for my wedding:) so welcome to my mad journey ill keep you updated on whats going on my life. Hope some people out there are mad enough to track me - would be a shame to talk to me self